A Gentle Pull...

I have something pulling at my heart.

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It is something BIG. It is HUGE. It is life changing. It is nothing short of miraculous.

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I actually just chuckled to myself. You know the kind. The chuckle that slips out. Pure excitement. Unleashed joy. Christmas morning type of anticipation. And, I realize that I am alone in the dark (yes mom I know that is NOT good for my eyes but I am a mom now and can make up the rules). AND, I, alone in the dark laughed out loud.

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Here's the thing. I want to share what it is that has my heart pulled. I want you to feel the excitement with me and to know what is on my mind....

BUT, I want to make sure that it is of God.

Don't get me wrong. I trust you, and I value your thoughts (or I would not bare my own). It's just that I know SO many of you would help make this thing happen. But, I want to make sure that it is the Lord's will and NOT my own. It is so easy to get an idea and to run full speed ahead to make it happen when maybe it was not what the Lord was trying to get across.

But I want it. I want it bad.

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I want to know that this tug is from the Lord. It is something that has been in the back of my mind for about 11 years. (Yes, I do remember the first time I thought about it. I actually remember what I was doing.) But recently it has danced it's way from the back of my mind to the front. At first it was a fleeting thought. Something to consider. But more recently it has become a desire.

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SO, pray with me. Pray that if this something is real and of God that it would come to fruition. Pray that I would seek the Lord's will and not my own. Pray that my motives would be correct and my heart pure. Pray that my family would not only be open but just as excited. Pray that the doors would open.

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You need to know what it is so that you can pray? Almost caught me there... don't worry. The Lord knows what is on my heart and in my mind and God is so big that he is OK with you being vague.

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So, please join me on this journey and pray with me. I'll let you know if it is a part of the Lord's will for my life... maybe sooner...maybe later...maybe never. (P.S. Don't ask - cuz I'm not telling and don't try Wade - he is like an Iron Mountain!)

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