Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Mission POSSIBLE

First of all - I am going to launch into this post by saying thanks to Jessa... after reading your blog at about midnight - I am left inspired to air my dirty laundry so that I can be held accountable to my goal...

So, ever since I have had the twins and lost ALL the weight that I gained while I was pregnant - I am STILL trying to loose all the weight I had BEFORE I was pregnant. Now, I am not talking about vanity weight loss here - I am talking about being who I was intended to me - my best. I don't want my knees hurting after the 100th trip up and down the stairs today. I don't want to be out of breath while pushing my 150 pounds of stroller and kids up the IMPOSSIBLE trail in Sedona. I don't want to be the one who hates herself inside but puts the face on that life is perfect.

I don't want to be Hollywood skinny. I want to like - no scratch that - I want to love myself. I don't want to go shopping for a new outfit only to come home in a horrible mood because I didn't like what I saw. I don't want to be the one who is embarrassed at the pool because I am not taking care of my body.

Lastly, I don't want to be the one who makes excuses for herself. Bottom line is - I need to get moving. It doesn't matter who didn't nap. It doesn't matter that the kids are sick. It doesn't matter that I am so tired - even peeing seems like a chore. It doesn't matter that I am not in the mood or have something else pressing to do. I need to move. Exercise. Run, walk, jump, swim, lift, dance.

Most importantly, I need to do it for myself. I want to do it for myself. I, like Jessa, want to be the best that I can be. There is no number - just a feeling that I am looking for.

So - why tell you? Because I think it will help ME remember a little more about my goals... it is so much harder to snarf down the WHOLE eclair at Claim Jumper when I know someone else knows my goals...

So - here is to eating smart, moving these muscles, and most importantly to meeting a goal...

AND next May after Wade and I go on a anniversary cruise with Matt and Ally - I PROMISE to post all our fabulous pics of all of us in swimsuits!!!


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Jessa said...

Your comment brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for the scripture reference.

So, here we go, huh!? I can't wait. My girlfriend Candice and I bought Pedometers - it makes it a little extra fun!

Good luck! We can TOTALLY do this! I am also praying this time around - for the little things - like eating better (for my health), paying more attention to Faith (for my heart), and getting moving (for my sanity!). I'm pretty sure SLOTH is one of the Seven Deadlies, right? :-)